I think of this saying alot. I am a divorced momma to two wonderful boys. I was with my now ex husband for 11 years. Well, I guess 10 years. I won't get into huge details of all that has happened in the past. My now ex husband chose after 10 years of being together and 7 years of marriage to find someone else. Our marriage much to my surprise was not strong enough to withstand another woman. So, after all those years it ended on a January day  when he told me to get out of his house. I packed the boys and I up and we moved back to my child hood home. 

I tried to save our marriage and now that I look back over that very dark time , I feel it was more for me than for our family. We had two boys, I was a stay at home mom and homeschooled. But , I would hear this saying in different ways. Set them free if they were yours they will return. I came across this picture today and figured this would be a great way for me to start this blog. I believe in my heart that at one time he was mine and I was his. But, this year I realized I just wasn't his girl , he wasn't my guy words my mother told me over and over again. Our divorce was finalized this past October. So this is the short story of how I became a single mom.

I have found alot out about myself this past year and about my children and my ability to do this without a man to rely on. It has been such a roller coaster of emotions and hard times. I have 2 boys who have watched me crumble to the floor at the meer thought of their father. They have watched me lose weight because I couldn't bring myself to eat let alone hold anything down. I think about my boys and how they hurt right beside me . I look at this past year and for awhile we fell apart together couldn't understand how this could ever happen to our solid family. But, this past year I have watched my children go from crying themselves to sleep every night praying that daddy would let us come back home, to laughing and joking and loving life as much as they can. My oldest took it hard , he was so angry and I put him in counseling to help his heart. He is my soldier always wanting to protect my heart. He explodes from time to time but is always quick to apologize. My youngest reminds me of me..he is the emotional one that hurts and is free to show his pain. 

I have fallen so many times this year and I continue to do so . I make mistakes and I don't always know what I am doing. I think we are doing just fine. It definately has been an adjustment for us but, we have done it and pulled closer together throughout this whole ordeal. This is their first full year in public school and they are doing great. A few bumps so to say but they have friends, their grades are doing awesome. I am working trying to get us a home we can call our own . I currently have 4 jobs all of which I love. I own my own business that has taken a back burner to ..well...life lol. I work at a mh/mr day center . I get a gentlemen ready for his day 2 days a week in the morning. I also am my dad's bookkeeper. I am definately busy.

We have found so many people from different walks of life that have taken us and just plain loved us through the ups and downs we go through as our family of 3. We have had more joy than pain now and we love it. We do things that we have never done before. We laugh , we cry, we rise and we fall but no matter whatt we do ,  we do it together. 

So there it is the beginning of our story on how we became Family of Three.....and how I have learned and continue to learn how to Keep Calm and Single mom on..